If I Die Today, Clap

 If I die today,

I hope the forecast is sunny with a soft breeze

The kind of weather where you can tan comfortably.

If I die today,

make it easy on my people.

I don't want anyone to cry but clap instead.

Ok, you can clap in tears.

Clap for my courage.

Clap for my devotion to my kids.

Clap for choosing myself at the hardest times.

Clap for my cool Instagram videos I loved editing.

Clap for my postpartum recovery and the work I did on my insides.

Clap again for my courage.

Clap for my good taste in sneakers.

Clap for my achievements that meant nothing to you,

But everything to me

Like the time I was afraid to fly and flew to Paris all alone

Or the time Miss Zannis told me my speech wasn't good enough and I still enrolled in the competition

And won.

Please stop crying,

Clap instead.

Clap for that time I drove alone to an undisclosed location for a 3-day retreat 

To hug complete strangers, fall in love with myself, and do it all in French.

Keep clapping for my courage.

Clap every time you see feathers on your path

That's me dropping some angel dust.

If I die today,

I know I tried my best, especially at my worst

I'm sorry I hurt you and hope you learned from it.

If I die today,

I have absolutely no regrets because every experience helped me grow,

God gave me all I could handle.

If I die today,

Talk to me along your walks

I'll be listening through the breeze brushing your cheek.

If I die today,

Clap for me

I did the best I could 

And loved life mostly because of the hardships.

If I die today,

I'm grateful I got a shot at this wild and precious life.

Thank you Mom and Dad

For bringing me into this world and loving me when it was hard.

If I die today,

At least I saw God in everyone's eyes

How cool is that?!

If I die today,

You better still be clapping

When you hear your favorite song, see your favorite person, taste a pumpkin spice latte, touch the sand, smell the beach.

If I die today,

Do something on my bucket list

Like go to Bali, do yoga, buy colorful bangles.

If I die today,

Promise me you'll take all my good and share it with others

But clap for my bad too

It's part of who I am

So clap, but not as loud.

If I die today,

Be grateful you have more time

To make the best of it.

If I die today,

Take care of my kids

All they need is Love and a lift to a friend's house.

If I die today,

Place my ashes with my Nonna Maria

She was the closest person to God

And our names are MM

So Marisa Minutes will live on.

If I die today,

Eat the friggin cake if it brings you joy.

Keep clapping

I'm almost done.

Remember the longest relationship you will ever have in this lifetime,

Is the one with Yourself

Pls Love the Fuck out of it

Just like I did.